I thought about the past. I am part of the past, but I'm not the past. It's important to move on, and I have accepted my past. It was a bad time, I'll keep the people that died dead. They have no need to be awakened by my crying. The time for tears has ended. I'll keep the past in the past, I'll keep the past in me. The future is now. I doubt you've read this yet. I may be back soon. I thank you and I'm sorry for being weird. By the way if you need me ever I'm here on ST.
with internet sisterhood Selena
P.S: Don't hate me because I'm deranged hopefully see ya around.
You date guys with very interesting names XD It is not your fault, what they did just resulted in bad things. You wouldn't have been able to help them, don't worry about it.
Not exactly stubborn soren knew he was gonna die, Reynard knew it too...all of them knew they just went along to see they're ideals and purposes to the end they're last words i remember like a song playing and replaying through my head sometimes i cant take it any more.
did i ever tell you how soren was so refined and dressed like a gentleman he kept his long black hair down he always wore a dressy out fit even his trench coat was fancy it was soooo sexy
"It’s my birthday, I'll get high if I want to Can’t deny that I want you, but I'll lie if I have to Cause you don’t say you love me To your friends when they ask you Even though we both know that you do (you do) One time, been in love one time"
Oh, believe me. When people that I love die I get so fucked up. And nobody has died since I started talkin to a couple of ppl tht make my life better so idk how the next death will go. It might go better bc now I have support but idk.
Mmmhhmmmm.... I have a lot of friends that have ended their lives b4 completin their missions... Idk if my Dad completed his mission or not. Sometimes I wonder if his mission was to make me a stronger person....
Here i go, along with the river's flow, theres one thing i wont show, this soul i've kept hidden, these arms i should be bed ridden, Here i go, i was trying to be, now i'm stuck with my method, it's not the best it's the worst, i'm afraid i'm afraid for this, i only need one thing, my razor blade, i only want one thing, for this sorrow to go away, Here i go, for you, only for you, i am ready to go, i am ready to use my liberator, blade bring me to the place, i am weary of the human race
sorens answering thing "you better have a good reason to call this phone"beep bro's answering thing "you probably have no good reason to be calling me fuck off afterr the tone"beep
Oh btw I saw some weird guy at the mall today. Haha! His clothing description matched Soren's with the trench coat & black pants but this dudes hair was fucked upp! Haha. I was trying hard not to stare. Half of his head was shaved, the middle was blonde, and then the other side was black that blended wit the blonde. Weirdest shit I've ever seen.
speaking only brings sorrow with each lie told to those few friends about how he alway wears long sleeve black dress shirts and black pants. he wears them so blood stains don't show
i took a blade and started going mad seeing myself in the mirror i bashed myself through it layinng impaled by a big peice of mirror i say myself for who i am, a distorted bitch with no soul
So long, My final cry will be a lie, Don't say i didn't try, you'll be just like me a worthless lie, come with me, let's switch places i'll show you how happy you really are, you may as well be high as a star, i am simply burning in tar, don't say life's a breeze, you worthless human sleeze bag, if you didn't like your trip, why play tag? we could have been together, but we aren't, i'm here in this bag, you over there lagging along talking all money, your not sweet like honey, YOUR SO FILTHY IT'S NOT EVEN FUNNY, how could it be?, can you really see?,, isn't it obvious?, i'm laying here crying under the tree that's about to die, greed, you cant help but to feed your ego, i don't want your joke of love, i'd sooner choke on the words i'd spew, i promise you cur, i will be the past tense of the word are, i will be were
Great but I probably won't get much sleep tonight again because I took a looonnnggg nap and got my ear pierced again and I can't lay on it :/ Oh wellz!
I am going to go to sleep and then wake up in an hour and then go back to sleep and wake up in another hour.... c wht processes I have to go through every night -__-
you and me, we're the same person, we've sat here muttering to ourselves the words meaning nothing, fuck you, attrocity, born with a invisable horn lookie here, i am rotting away, i am singing to the night, begging for wings if i could fly before i meet lady death, i think it would give the day a being to see, i love decay, i am not in disarray, i am not here to stay i'm sure if i went away it would be better, i'll take my sweater and ride the cold winds, i know i've sinned oh well
my soul is this brush, I ain't in any rush to throw it away, I ain't ready to let it be crushed, i may be lost, i know my actions have a cost, all is not swell, i'll try to stay well, but now i'm in this prison cell, drinking the waters of hell my sweet mocking birds, all talk no action, now they die, this night i heave a sigh
these scars, have gone too far, the time of stars has ended, my mind has bended you are the same coward though, a false hope can be, i have no hope, that is real, watch the fall, watch me crawl, laying motionless, sprawled like the rest of the bodies
Glass heart, I hold the pieces, It will start to fade, when i wade in the river, i'll forget myself, drowning in my tears, today will begin the years, a new day i will end it all, today i will crush all that remains, a new day i'll try to piece it together again,
Weakness, it's a word that i live, it's my act in death, my crumbleing bones, how is it being alone, not so good, you wish you could go back, but now you lack nomality
When I use to snort coke I would usually gain my mind again on the floor somewhere in my house with a ton of other people laying down all around the floor. I only had a bloody nose tho....
I have to sew people up (because of my job) but usually for reasons that aren't self-infliction. But one girl came into the place I was working at and her thigh was cut really deep (it was horrible) and I decided to sew her up and not tell anyone. It was one of the worst things I have ever done....
Bonjour, Je t'aime, Ma colombe, razor wings for me, open wounds to see, why not join me for tea? voice is for verses, choice is for actions, eyes are for attractions, mine is not as simple as gender or looks, my love, my attraction is for emotions, as for devotions, those will leave you, eyes directed to the most beautiful sights, seeing is believing, believing is decieving, feeling is pealing away, i would take seperation, i would fake every attraction, I would never accept the reaction directed by instinct, emotion is more than emotion, reaction is easier than attraction, my love, my razor winged dove, you are numb, I am too, So i let you take flight, in all directions, down up left right, I'm afraid i've given up the fight
Killed the day, by being this way, I now pay, I cannot pray, These cords are too tired, Screaming into a pillow, I am far from the willows, Here where I am Ewige Schmerzen, Here where I am Trauer, I no longer have the hour, Es ist einfach ein Blut-Dusche
So you think i'm a heathen, I'm not breathin' to explain, I'm just gasping for air so why not grow a pair, I'm picking at my self not slamming the weak into a shelf, So what i'm a fairy, At least i'm not a ogre, Slam me in the snow, Let's make a show, Come on man this is just low, Go slap another hoe
You never wanted me, So why do you keep me? If I had me, I'd throw me out, Instead of pouting about, Or giving me a shout, Look I'm a worthless lout, Here we go, Throw me down, Kick me until I cant make a sound, There's plenty of queer to mix with the beer
Terrified, Fried like chicken, I'm tired of lickin' this family's dick, I'm wired down to biblical trcks, I am a candle, Watch the wick burn away, I am a razor, Dripping with blood, I am the unholy, "Bi why don't you die" Why must you make me cry, Why must I lie to myself?, Enraged, Like a wolf exiled, I am a grave defiled, I am an execution withion trial, I am the vile bi, Please try to understand, it's not like i demanded to be born
bro's poem
I am bi, please try to understand, It's not like i'm trying to demand
Yep and they're zealots.....between all the burdens piled on him and all the shame and all sorts of other crap i'm surprised he hasn't took the family gun and blew his head off
Hello new day, I'm making rat fillay, A lil' gift for the lunch tray, My silence is perfect, My violence what's the point?, The only point i've got is here cutting my palm, Long tired of singing the psalms, Why not spend more time collecting alms, God is not here for me, The devil is inside me, My lamented wounds are just another sacrifice
Delusional inclusional society, Where's my place?, I'm every bit as discracefull as you, My path away, I wish for bliss, A useless wish with it's ashes pissed on, Look where you've got me, Bleeding for the leading majority of assholes, You are exactly what pop culture made you, Their bitch
dear selena, This letter is going to be short because i don't really have enough time for the usual sized letter, I just cant take it anymore I fell back onto a sharp steed and here i am bleeding, If it was alright i would never give up this fight for happiness, this isn't your doing it's mine, your loving brother
Yeah, the only bad thing is that I will have to take my nephew away from his family cuz now he is mine cuz I signed the damn papers. And how'd u do tht?
Owww :/ Don't start being a klutz like me XD I was born in Deutschland, lived there until I was 2, and then moved to America. I am thinking about moving back too. My grandparents live there....
Awww :( That is too young to have to be going through tough times. I hope that he gets through whatever he is going through and you are a great sister for being there for him. And if you really want to know it is dreizehn....
dear brother, i am very sorry, i am a terrible sister, forgive me, just please for once don't cut the river and i'm sorry, if you end up like i used to be i'll try to be there
well fuck.... my family found out when i was out of the house it's my fault all my fault my fault my fault alll my god damn fault it's gonna be fine brother it's a long road but you may yet survive it.
Soren's text: Oooops i think i just gave the stuff to a random hobo or street punk because he's running at me with the scythe ready to swing see ya tomorrow.
OOOOOOH NOOOOOOOOOOOO Soren's text : I bought a scythe instead of a pitchfork and i bought a bunch of seeds and a hoe I'm gonna seed a bunch of red wagons.
Oh.... you don't know yet. Well I hope it isn't loaded..... if u post a comment on here in a week or so I am going to assume u r dead.... I will probably do somethin dumb....
In your final breaths, Glory, A story you wont be able to tell me, Please forgive me, But I must see toward the future, A future not worth having without you
Awwww :) At least u have somethin to remind u of u guys. My dad had a locket made, put our pics in it, got our names carved in the back, and hung it on the staircase tht he hung himself by.....
measure his shooting abilitys against 3 gun wieldin people and 3 others that may have knives or other shit...i don't think soren can dodge a bullet probability of survival 23%
Soren.......He's been shot again....instead of killing the fuck he calmly and almost warmly disarmed him as he got shot in the left hand.... As soren did all of this he said "Child i don't fear you....nor do i wanna kill you"
I think it is awesome that u have diff colored eyes! I wish mine were like that. I wear colored contacts to make my eyes look cooler. My nephew has different colored eyes..... what a coincedence.
I know but details aren't enough. I bet if u were an anime character u would look like Sebastian from Black Butler. But u don't have red eyes when you decide to turn into true demon form xD
That explains why I fear your Hell. I am Godddd!!!!!!! MUAHAHA!! My own version of God. The depressed god that wishes pain onto everyone that fucks with me :)
the OMEGA HELL MWAhHAhhaaahaahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaahaaaaaahahahhaaahahaahaaahahaaaahhaaahaahaahaahhaaaaaaaahhhaahahaaahhaahahhaahhaaahaaaahaahahhhaaha
Yay ^-^ Tell her I said Congrats!!! I have stopped cutting too. There is no purpose, Soren. It just makes everything worse in the long run because it is the only way that you deal with your emotions other than fighting/
monica and i were pretty much in love with eachother but hateing ourselves she was the first person i tried to quit cutting with..we both have a matching scar of a heart with a S+M
When you think of her don't think about the bad times, think about the good times and the good memories. I am sure that that is all she wants you to do :)
me:"i'm sorry for these horribe actions monica:don't think about things you were aren't proud of think of the people you did them for, i for one thank you" me:"for something like that you still thank me, i should be thanking you for not judgeing me too harshly"
Yeah. I guess so. I wouldn't know what I would do with myself if I killed someone though. Inside I might feel extreme happiness and act like I am sad on the outside or maybe it would be the other way around....
Well if u did it, hid the body(or didn't leave evidence) you could escape and you could just tell me personally. I would feel bad for you if you felt bad about killing tho :/
Holy shit! Those ppl r crazy... geezzz trying to fuck with you... who could be so stupid? xP Yeah, you might get shot again....... watch ur back closely :/
i didn't have an outburst i was just chillin' on my way home when i heard"that's the guy who my friend shot" then iheard some woohoos then boom
I got clocked on myback with a baseball bat. me:" i have no conflict wit you i would advise leaving me alone." i stood up thug1: "or what, you gonna call the cops?" me:"no cops i just don't wanna hurt you save your bats for someone else" thug2: pulls out a switch blade and trys to stab me Thug1: bashes me on the ribs me:"don't say i didn't warn you" kicks baseball bat out of his hand left hand punches thug2 Thug2:slashes my left arm me: grabs thug1 throws him at 2 "please stay down" Thug1/2: gets up thug2:throws knife at me me:barely dodges it thug1 trys to bash my head me:pulls out one buck knife"three can play at this game" thug1 swings bat half an inch away from my face me : kicks thug2 uses him asa launch for a flip gets behind thug1 puts knife to throat "stop this madness or he dies" thug1/2: "ok man holy shit" me:"if we meet again let's not met like this"
I wish I could say I knew how to help ur random violent outbursts but I have no clue on what to say. I hopr things get better and u can stop being so violent. Maybe u can look to Selena for motivation?
Last night when selena was asleep i left and used my key to lock the door. I walked to the alley way and lost my mind.......it was between me and a couple thugs on my way home. I would give you the details of how i took out the two guys but i'm not dat sure.
those days are over, those years still bring much tears, nothing for me shall be clear sighted, i fight because it's what may set me free, baked in an oven, my soul was woven by lost blood and hope, thank you dope, fuck you pope
For some reason I kinda feel for the people in gangs. I kno they kill ppl and all but there is a different reason for everybody and they r just tryin to survive.
Selena and i almost got mugged by a knife wielding thug but i punched him then took the knife with my palm then i knocked him out...i was pretty chilaxed there for a second
I know :/ U should c my bad, it looks all fucked up :/ I am never walkin to the library again, it kinda sucks cuz it was a nice day today and I just wanted to be outside but it isn't even safe in town anymore.
Walkin home from the library at like 7-8 some standin by the bar decided tht he would hate on me, grab me by my bad arm, and throw me at the brick wall. There isn't much more than running I can do when I weigh very little and have no muscle and this guy was as tall and as buff as hell.
Okay, then just stop beating other people up until they almost die. Just fight the ppl u usually fight with xD and leave the others alone after u give em a punch or two. But u really should stop fighting 'Money' because he just gives u all the more reason to think that fighting is okay.
Sorry! I didn't loose patience I fell asleep. I have been doing that a lot lately for some odd reason. After reading the fight thing I am pretty convinced that u aren't 100 % human. Lol. I agree with most of the stuff u posted afterwards xD
My baby,My baby let me know Because,you love me let me go And you're my lover, you pay me Twice my size and on your knees you lay in my thighs,
Take my hand and let's end it all, She broke her little bones On the boulders below, Take my hand and let's end it all,
My Baby,My Baby let me go, And if you loveme,you love me let me go, Cause i'm your brother, your brother, Have some pride, And now you love me, you love me Then die tonight
the fight me vs money(my name for him for all inteents and purposes):
After a long heated convo between me and him.....
Me :"after all these years you still wont change" swings with the left hand Money; Dodges blow "well you my old friend are still poor"kicks me in the chest Me: does a backflip as falls"at least i have a soul" grabs him by neck slams him to the ground money:"at least i was able to change" rolls thowing me into a brick wall me/money:stand up me: trips him stomps on his ribs money trys to grab my leg me jumps 3 feet back money gets up rams me onto a dumpster "this is where trash like you should be" me "very clever(sarcastic tone) left hand punches him in the face jump kicks him to the ground "you are dirt just like the ground i walk on" money spits blood on my boot me "I hope you realixe how satisfying it is for me to hve you under my foot" money "satisfy this fucktard" slides out from my foot does a spin kick me jumps lands on his leg mid air left hand punches his nose making his blood and mine mix money throws me using his leg me goes flying onto a wall springs off takes him down by his neck puches him in the stomache three times money grabs a beer bottle breaks hit stabs me drops bottle as i stagger backwards pulls combat knife me pulls out my two buck knives money runs at me slashes at me twice missing both times me stabs him in his knife hand money drops knife me "please don't make me kill you" money "fine...i guess we should stay alive until we finally just wanna end it all" me" i still hate your guts remember that"
shortly after i stitched his hand shut we walked away
I would but i love fighting sombody that i learned a martial art with...he's a black belt in karate pffft i'm a brown blt in a good amount of other stuff
I hate you, Why did i create you, I stand where I always do, You stand where the money is, Fuck you, I knew you didn't love me, So why did you be such a dove? You acted as the one birdy i would never shoot, You then turned into an ape, Screwed me and took my loot
it would be worse than the christian definition of HELL it would be my creation of SUPER HELL MWAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAAAHHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
That blazinblasian troll was pissin me off sooo muchh >.< She posted something every 3 min. cuz she had multiple accounts & she would comment stupid shit on serious posts -__-
I wouldn't mind if u trolled trolls or trolled everyonce in awhile like with the skits or poems. Just one troll inparticular has been pissin me off all dayy -__--
Please dont join the troll army. Today they were gettin so annoyin tht I swore if I knew where they lived I would have went 2 their houses, cut there faces off, and feed em to my fuckin dogg -__-
I love you.I am sorry I could never be good enough. Know this....I am kicking ass to defend the one I love.I fight because i have to some times. I hope you are proud of the good parts i have.
:/ So u didn't need to change ur cell #, pack ur bags, and find some where to live alone for 2 years until someone could find u, drag u home, and then put u in the looney bin for a couple of months.
I wish I could say the same. It kind of changes between my forgiving my dad for leaving me and the other half of me hating him for leavin me wit my insane family so they could just use me like everybody else :/
It has been a problem since dad has died his last words to me besides the failure of a son stuff were: "You are a fucking weakling. You are too mercyfull.Even if you tried you could never ever be able to fight for anyone not even you." Then he kicked my ass badly I kept saying I could never hurt my old man.
Selena told me today : "You are the scariest person i know....but your heart is where it matters to you.I am thankful for this but you didn't need to cut a gash on your hand". me: "What i have done i have done"
My Rage, It will burn the pages of my book, Sooner or later i will end up remembering the lives I took, So I must make a bableing brook of my blood, Flood out all feelings, All in peeling away, Where I shall stay
I honestly don't know what has gotten into me I fight with way more speed and force when i am protecting selena but I am starting to be more brutal wen i fight not stopping for crys beeging of mercy
Yeah, I have encountered the 'frenzy mode' once with my friend. I just let him keep going and finally someone came by & stopped him. I was actually hoping tht he would kill the bastard.
the fight from selena's eyes: Some dude was being all rapisty on selena,
selena"dude get your hands off me" dude "who's gfonna do anything for you"
Me " I will" throws him across the pavement dude gets up and runs at me kicking at me me dodges the kick dude comes around with another kick me grabs leg slams dude into the ground, "stay the fuck down" dude spings up and grabs my neck,throws me at a dumpster
Me srings off of can punches him in the face uses dude to land dude gets up slams me against building Me kicks him in ribs dude falls down coughing blood me tackles him as he falls starts rapidly punching his chest Selena "don't beat the guy to death" me just kept going
I guess i was in a frenzy because selea had to pull me off the guy
Walkin down the alley lined in shattered glass, Wonderin when the memories will ever pass, A girl with a porcelain tear-streaked face, She doesn't belong, this isn't the right place, Looking in the mirror I see pieces of him in me, Every damn time I wanna go on a killin spree, I mite just be a trainee but ur my nominee.
the guy got his ass kicked soon after my lil' thing and being charged at as it happened Fight in detail: Drunk stumble as trying to slice me Me pulls two buck knifes Drunk Tryed to slice my face Me deflects his attack Drunk Kicks me at a trash can Me does summer sault and springs up, Drunk throws knife at me Me dodges it barely Drunk picks up a 2 by 4 Me attempts to slice stomach drunk somehow manages to block Me puts knives away Drunk swing 2 by 4 Me Dodges "you know this is very fun" Drunk "fuck you" Me Kicks 2by4 out of drunks hands punches him in the face Drunk stumble a lil throws a punch Me ends up getting hit in a bullet wound Drunk kicks towards my face Me dodges weaves puts drunk in sleeper hold Fight won
Were you?, Or was I?, If I die, I would never expect you to cry, SO MOTHAFUCKA, I'm taking you to hell with me, LET THOSE CURSED CHURCH BELLS RING, I WILL SING YOUR SOUL AWAY, YOU WILL NOT BE ABLE TO SAY ANYTHING
I would have killed myself if i didn't have purpose. Selena says I am like a knight and a samuri honourable and benevolent(I disagree with benevolent).
Monica should never have died like she did, Selena will not die like her so long as I still draw breath, So long as I draw breath I will be death and protection
Love, It's as beautiful as a dove, As frightening as a bloody glove, Love, It's embrace, Warm like the sun, Cold like death's touch, Love, A truth, A lie that makes me wanna die, A bludgeon, Swung by a thug, Love, A fire burning, The alone yearning, The together always learning, Love, Brutally persistent, A time of day, A new way to live
Lord, You make me bored, Maybe I'll rob your treasure hoard, Lord,Lord, Servant to kings, I'll kill you and wear your fancy rings, Sirens will sing of this day, The day I slay god and his kingdom
No, not for me. Poetry can only come into my mind when I don't want it to. I have to search for a pen and paper before I loose it all. I will drop everythin just so I don't forget a poem in my headd.
Sharpen a axe to the point of which you bleed if you touch the sharp part, Strap your arm to a sturdy device, Grab the axe, Chop untill your arm is removed
I was joking. My arm is just in extreme pain right now & there is no meds left & I got rid of all of my drugz so now I have to live in painn for awhilee.
I told you once, I told you twice, LEAVE ME ALONE, Now it's time to pay the price, I will be as a knife, Fucking over your strife,
I told you once, I told you twice, GET A LIFE, I don't need your nice bird, STOP BEFORE I BREAK THAT FINGER, If you continue to linger, I'LL CUT OFF THAT WHOLE FUCKING ARM
