Ready to die

You should see your doctor. It is possible you are probably going through menopausal changes which affect you in these ways. First, check to find out if there is indeed some sort of chemical reason for your feelings (hormones, health issues). Some herbal medications can help us get over these slumps. Try St. John's Wort or 5-HTP. You're not being selfish. These feelings are real, but you need to find the cause of them. More often than not it's an imbalance in our diet or hormones.

Another thought is guilt. Perhaps you are hitting yourself for a decision you made years ago and have never forgiven yourself about. Sometiimes regret, guilt, unforgiveness can brew together in the cauldron of our hearts to spew out a self-hatred and despair toward living. Don't give into it. For the sake of the grandchildren you will see in just a few years, pull yourself up and find out the source of these feelings.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity." Jeremiah 29:11-14

If anybody tell you: '' I'm ready to die!'' What would you feel? Of, cource you won't say, -''yes, you're right...'' When God has maden human beings, he hasn't meant the death, especialy without asking him. Notwithstanding, I'm 20 years old, i dare to say, that you haven't any right to end your life by yourself. The only, you have to do is that you have to see other ways, you have to deem very deeply about yourself,you have to answer the question: would you like to see a man or a woman saying that their life has finished, they're suffering everytime and etc. to live in this world, it's your duty.

I think the only solution for your problem is to search for God's help...believe me my dear sister...
I, the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, FEAR NOT...Fear thou not, for I am with thee.. Iwill strenghten thee, I will help thee...I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.Nothing is impossible with God.. May the light of the Lord shine on your life.

Please try to remember what would happen to those you leave behind. Your family will be devasted without you. I Know what i'm saying as I have lost many family members in the past 10 years most recent last month my 6 month old granddaughter from SIDS. If I didn't get help with my depression long ago I'd never have met her. My life is spinning now too. My daughter is falling apart, my husband is too, cause we had the baby, alot like our own she was here so much in fact she was at our house when she past. Death is final there's no coming back, unfortunately for us that are left behind to grieve for God knows how long. My nephew completed suicide in 93 4 months after my mom die of cancer. My brother was murdered in 77 my mom grieved til she died. He didn't get to opt to live at 30 yrs. old. I still miss him everyday. There are many voids in my heart and it would be easier to give-up but what about my family. I love them too. So no I won't take the easie way out I want to see what happiness is still here for me cause I know tomorrow is another day. It maybe raining now but I know the sun will be shinning again, my mom told me that years ago and she was right. Seek proffessional help if you need to. Your family will be proud you didn't take the cowards way out. This is a fact! Just ask them what they think about it. You may change you mind if you talk to one of them. You must still have alot here on earth to do right.

Get a grip on yourself woman and stop being so selfish.

How do you think your children would feel having their Mother commit suicide?