Ready to move on

Posted by an anonymous user on 10/3/2008 1:30:00 PM

I am NOT going to kill myself, but this is my attempt to get rid of all these negative emotions if I ever want to have anything in life then I have to throw all this out there even if no reads this or if you all think I am a weirdo here goes..................................................................

MOM AND DAD I am forgiveing you ma u abused me you yelled at me or hit me on a daily basis always telling me how worthless, stupid, lazy, ugly, useless, i'd never amount to anything, and then if your words werent enough there was the hitting and all the times you made me feel embarassed about being my self for being a girl it hurt dad you never stood up for me always made me feel like I had to get thru it by myself make me feel she was always more improtant than me you were so focused on being a good man for her what about me? am I worth anything? not even protection hw many days in a row can a child get into trouble before you think maybe its not my child? you had me grow up thinking that I was not worth anything not even kind words.I FORGIVE YOU but not because you deserve it but because I need to let it go and move on and I cant do it without forgive ing you


to all the people who made fun of me in elementary I forgive you we were young and u prbably did not know what you were doing.

to all the people in high school that hurt me I forgive you it was a while ago you knew what you were doing there is no excuses and I pray yur path is where you wanted to be, succesful healthy and loved

1.for being my friend then when said the wrong thing you dropped me and then all the girls who liked you better chose you over me and then made fun of me.it really hurt me cause all thru jr high and then high school these same people refused to talk to me I FORGIVE YOU

2.you said if we were the last two people on earth you'd kill your self" it hurt me but now that i'm older I realize that your insecurities and your need for everyone elses approval made you over look me cause you were popular and I wasnt, and even in high school u still talked about me u were a jerk then u r probably a jerk now I forgive you anyways I FORGIVE YOU

3.found out that you were talking about me about how annoying I am it hurt cause when you got a boyfriend and I didnt when you started having sex and I wasnt you changed i'm happy about how things turned out cause I believe that you are materialistic and a approval seeker you are only comfortable around people who you want to be like not with who you are and I believe that is a sad way to live but you own a nice house though and you husband makes alot of money to keep you comfortable enough not to work hope you are happy with how life turned out for you I know I am I FORGIVE YOU


4.we were friends I introduced you to my other friends and you tried to cut me out then you lied about me and your lie sent my life in a further downward sprial then it was already going after your lie I lost evrything a steady place to live a job friends family I lost everything exept gods love and it was his gentle voice and his love that pulled me through it now I see your married and kids the whole 9 hope every lie was worth it what comes around goes around you'll get yours and I hope you can handle it when it happens I FORGIVE YOU

5.you stole from me used me to your benefit cause you took my kindness for weakness hope it was worth it cause I will never again no matter what happens ever be as good of a freind to you as I was then I hope everything you ever wanted comes true for you but it wont be thru me I FORGIVE YOU

6.you were a piece of shit boyfriend you used me and made me work twice as hard than I should have just cause I was worried about the bills you almost never sexed me and drank and got drunk on the daily we moved so many times I lost friends cause of you u always were yelling at me and controlling me but I loved you and just wanted it to be better i'm glad I broke up with you everyday away from you is a day I can think clearer and move forward and acheive my goals in life i'm so much happier alone than I am with you thank you for lacin me with this game cause I will never br in that situation again I FORGIVE YOU


thanks for reading





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