Reality is different...
Posted by mirca on 9/13/2008 11:53:00 AM
I wish someone could see behind my smile and see what is happening inside me.
But nobody does, because they think I'm ok....well, I'm not....and I wish I could tell the following things someone.....but I can't....
Nobody knows that....
...I can't sleep because of nightmare since I'm young.
...I cry nearly every night.
...I wake up with pain between my legs.
...I was broken inside when I was younger.
...I was raped by them many times.
...I dream every night of it.
...I hurt myself because I can't deal with all this.
...I sometimes feel so far away and lonely when I'm surrounded by friends.
...I am fighting everyday to keep on smiling.
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But nobody does, because they think I'm ok....well, I'm not....and I wish I could tell the following things someone.....but I can't....
Nobody knows that....
...I can't sleep because of nightmare since I'm young.
...I cry nearly every night.
...I wake up with pain between my legs.
...I was broken inside when I was younger.
...I was raped by them many times.
...I dream every night of it.
...I hurt myself because I can't deal with all this.
...I sometimes feel so far away and lonely when I'm surrounded by friends.
...I am fighting everyday to keep on smiling.
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You have to tell someone about what happened to you, you can't just expect them to look at you once and understand that you're in pain. I'm speaking from explicit experience. There are helpful websites online, free therapy, things of that sort... and it's completely anonymous. It's much better than just trying to keep it all to yourself.
Speak out, be strong. (:
Speak out, be strong. (:
Posted by Penguin on 9/17/2008 12:37:00 AM (Report abuse)
:( I wish you could talk to someone.
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/13/2008 3:53:00 PM (Report abuse)
Oh sweetheart, there is hope for you. If you were raped when you were young, you most likely had Post Tramatic Stress Disorder...go to a physicologist that is trained or has expertise in this field. There are also support groups...these might be helpful and supportive to you while you help yourself heal. I wish you the best of luck and love. Take care of yourself.
Posted by asthecrowflies on 9/13/2008 3:46:00 PM (Report abuse)
I'm sorry you feel like this and have to deal with all that. You can't let this stuff ruin your life, though. There is so much to offer in this life... don't let it pass you by. Don't let what happened in the past cast a shadow on today. You can get through it and move on. Don't be afraid to turn to others aroudn you that care. They are there for a reason: to help you and support you... to lift you up when you are down.
Posted by an anonymous user on 9/13/2008 12:46:00 PM (Report abuse)