Really A Cry For Help...
Posted by bemused on 5/27/2008 9:48:00 PM
MY SECRET: I am a psychopath. I was raised in stable family, a very affluent neighboorhood, got straight A's, never a single ticket or encounter with Johnny Law. I even attend college on a full scholarship...but, I am a clinically diagnoised psychopath. I present myself as the charming, smart, and social young man every parent loves. But know that in reality, your life and everything you hold dear, I care nothing about. I feel no shame, loneliness, or remorse. My amusement comes from my conquests, my rewards rest in the expressions of pain and anguish shown on your face. The weaknesses and fears, the emotions you show all to easily, I will use against you. Be it for my own profit or simple pleasure, I'll use them in anyway to accomplish my goals.
I have a problem though, you as a people no longer present me with any sort of challenge. It is too easy getting you to dance like the little monkeys, you have become too easy to manipulate. Prehaps there is no fear of individuals like myself, but all psychopaths are not serial killers or criminals. I guarantee if you met me after reading this, you would have no idea what I really am. But I think this lacking sense of fulliment I am experincing is caused by you. Your acceptance as roles of the victims. You prefer the being of martyr, at least then you find that sympathy and attention you crave. I ask you though to wise up, stop making your emotions so available to people like me. Its not difficult anymore getting you to believe me, the fun is gone because you are so desperate for human connection, you all believe anything!
I tell you my secret in hopes some of you will be smarter, more fun to play with. I am tired of my rotuine, my eventual dominance of you, sexually and emotionally, is now a guarantee. I have included some brief explanations to usual methods so maybe someone out there will recogonize the trend -- and if I actually pulled this on you one night, please leave a message. Give other readers a hint to the capabilities of people like me, and what we do to cattle like yourself.
-MY SECRETS...-
Females -- only to be used for semi long term usage -- younger and naive the better, also awesome effect on either virgins or girls with reeeeeeally strong religious beliefs. Stronger the conviction, better the rewards. but this isn't as much fun with girls older than 21, then chances are the girl is already somewhat damaged, not as much of a challenge:...
-I tell girls "I love you" (*stare "meaningfully" into their eyes and gently cradle the chin your hands, they take you really serious) and get them to love me deeply in return. I do the cuddling, the kissing, and usual BF stuff. **Sometimes have to monitor sexual behavior because unless already aware of it, a sudden onset of sexual sadisim can be hint that things are not as they seem.** Then, when I get bored and the sex is not worth putting up to you, I tell you to your face that "I never actually loved you" and saying saying I did "only allowed me to sleep with you quicker." Depending on this inital reaction (getting them to take me seriously in that I think they are pathetic is actually harder than you would think), I sometimes find it necessary/fun to mention the other girls I am currently involved with or seeing later that night. (include details of those other girls, in exact detail, and not forgetting to point out why the other girl is more attractive and better sexually) and with that...THERE IT IS. That dawn of realization on your face when you realize it is all true. It gives me the final ounce of pleasure I can get from you, which is watching your heart break. You think you are special to me while I bet myself how quickly I can get you to cry. Then I usually Laugh when I realize it was easier than expected.
And this doesn't start to cover the damage I start laying seeds for during the "relationship." If I can somehow leave you with some sort of long-term psych issue, caused directly from my comments and actions, I feel accomplished. Way I see it, giving you an eating disorders will make sure you stay skinny for life (**first accomplished and confirmed case was 17 yrs old 5'1 ft. and weighing 100. I told her she could be skinner...), starting a drug addiction ensures at least your dealer will stay a friend (why would anyone think smoking crack would be a good idea when the person offering it and convincing you to smoke it (ME), in fact does not do or ever tried crack?! They deserved it for being that dumb and not listening to D.A.R.E.), and you constantly questioning your self worth due to me implying constantly that you are not good enough (good ones are when parents have split or there is some implanted belief that they are dumb or something like that. Who cares if it is true, it the screw is there, twist that as far as it will go!)
-- For me, this pain i give is like my initals being carved into the rest of your life. While you can appear to be the strongest person on the outside, I'll know your true weakness. You are damaged goods, hopefully flawed enough to affect the rest of your life. I know your dark reality you hide from everyone, I put it there. Your crippling self doubt, yea--I set it all up.
Finally--I take responsiblity causing countless tears, lots of pain (physical and emotional), one divorce (not my parents - they suprisingly are still married), 3 abortions (I only pushed one in this direction, other 2 were thinkin same thing already), at least 4 seperate cases of hardcore drug addiction, a couple girl's introduction to world of "sex tape scandals", and that is what I'm getting from high school and freshman year in college. But please, be a better challenge, I'm tired of this same old same old. Think about it this way...you remain stupid and believing, trusting everything people like me say without even a glance. Then I marry your daughter. I have my fun with her for a few years (CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT I COULD GET AWAY WITH BEING HER HUSBAND?! ESPECIALLY IF WE MOVED DOWN SOUTH OR SOMETHING...) and then divorce her. Just think of how fucked up I will make this girl, then think as it may have never happened and seen me for what I was. Make me fight for my dinner, cause I am damn bored
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I have a problem though, you as a people no longer present me with any sort of challenge. It is too easy getting you to dance like the little monkeys, you have become too easy to manipulate. Prehaps there is no fear of individuals like myself, but all psychopaths are not serial killers or criminals. I guarantee if you met me after reading this, you would have no idea what I really am. But I think this lacking sense of fulliment I am experincing is caused by you. Your acceptance as roles of the victims. You prefer the being of martyr, at least then you find that sympathy and attention you crave. I ask you though to wise up, stop making your emotions so available to people like me. Its not difficult anymore getting you to believe me, the fun is gone because you are so desperate for human connection, you all believe anything!
I tell you my secret in hopes some of you will be smarter, more fun to play with. I am tired of my rotuine, my eventual dominance of you, sexually and emotionally, is now a guarantee. I have included some brief explanations to usual methods so maybe someone out there will recogonize the trend -- and if I actually pulled this on you one night, please leave a message. Give other readers a hint to the capabilities of people like me, and what we do to cattle like yourself.
-MY SECRETS...-
Females -- only to be used for semi long term usage -- younger and naive the better, also awesome effect on either virgins or girls with reeeeeeally strong religious beliefs. Stronger the conviction, better the rewards. but this isn't as much fun with girls older than 21, then chances are the girl is already somewhat damaged, not as much of a challenge:...
-I tell girls "I love you" (*stare "meaningfully" into their eyes and gently cradle the chin your hands, they take you really serious) and get them to love me deeply in return. I do the cuddling, the kissing, and usual BF stuff. **Sometimes have to monitor sexual behavior because unless already aware of it, a sudden onset of sexual sadisim can be hint that things are not as they seem.** Then, when I get bored and the sex is not worth putting up to you, I tell you to your face that "I never actually loved you" and saying saying I did "only allowed me to sleep with you quicker." Depending on this inital reaction (getting them to take me seriously in that I think they are pathetic is actually harder than you would think), I sometimes find it necessary/fun to mention the other girls I am currently involved with or seeing later that night. (include details of those other girls, in exact detail, and not forgetting to point out why the other girl is more attractive and better sexually) and with that...THERE IT IS. That dawn of realization on your face when you realize it is all true. It gives me the final ounce of pleasure I can get from you, which is watching your heart break. You think you are special to me while I bet myself how quickly I can get you to cry. Then I usually Laugh when I realize it was easier than expected.
And this doesn't start to cover the damage I start laying seeds for during the "relationship." If I can somehow leave you with some sort of long-term psych issue, caused directly from my comments and actions, I feel accomplished. Way I see it, giving you an eating disorders will make sure you stay skinny for life (**first accomplished and confirmed case was 17 yrs old 5'1 ft. and weighing 100. I told her she could be skinner...), starting a drug addiction ensures at least your dealer will stay a friend (why would anyone think smoking crack would be a good idea when the person offering it and convincing you to smoke it (ME), in fact does not do or ever tried crack?! They deserved it for being that dumb and not listening to D.A.R.E.), and you constantly questioning your self worth due to me implying constantly that you are not good enough (good ones are when parents have split or there is some implanted belief that they are dumb or something like that. Who cares if it is true, it the screw is there, twist that as far as it will go!)
-- For me, this pain i give is like my initals being carved into the rest of your life. While you can appear to be the strongest person on the outside, I'll know your true weakness. You are damaged goods, hopefully flawed enough to affect the rest of your life. I know your dark reality you hide from everyone, I put it there. Your crippling self doubt, yea--I set it all up.
Finally--I take responsiblity causing countless tears, lots of pain (physical and emotional), one divorce (not my parents - they suprisingly are still married), 3 abortions (I only pushed one in this direction, other 2 were thinkin same thing already), at least 4 seperate cases of hardcore drug addiction, a couple girl's introduction to world of "sex tape scandals", and that is what I'm getting from high school and freshman year in college. But please, be a better challenge, I'm tired of this same old same old. Think about it this way...you remain stupid and believing, trusting everything people like me say without even a glance. Then I marry your daughter. I have my fun with her for a few years (CAN YOU IMAGINE WHAT I COULD GET AWAY WITH BEING HER HUSBAND?! ESPECIALLY IF WE MOVED DOWN SOUTH OR SOMETHING...) and then divorce her. Just think of how fucked up I will make this girl, then think as it may have never happened and seen me for what I was. Make me fight for my dinner, cause I am damn bored
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wow, you really are a monster, I never though I'd say this but I'm glad I'm completly asexual
Posted by Lalarelle on 8/17/2008 1:38:00 PM (Report abuse)
and how many std's do you have? ....really you are hurting your self along with everyone else...you might want to get checked..especially since you have 3 more years.
Posted by Hahaha on 8/5/2008 10:01:00 PM (Report abuse)
LOL, oh my god, you are sooo funny!!! You should be in Hollywood! " I love making you little monkeys dance", LOL...... I can't stop laughing! Where did you pick that one up? The funnoiest part is that you actually BELIEVE yourself! " I know your dark reality, I put it there", hahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!! That was a good one too, very original. You should be writing cheap, dimestore horror novels! What a pathetic narcissist.
Posted by Babyhedred on 7/30/2008 10:18:00 AM (Report abuse)
PEDIPHILE, you certainly do need some help!!!!!
Posted by LuLu on 7/10/2008 1:40:00 AM (Report abuse)
Hi
Yeah you made it up
hell yeah
or you've just been hurt
it wasnt those girls fault
Yeah you made it up
hell yeah
or you've just been hurt
it wasnt those girls fault
Posted by Uh-uh on 7/3/2008 2:49:00 PM (Report abuse)
oh ya, and just because you are psyco, doesnt mean you have to turn every girl your with into one. its not their fault your crazy.
leave them alone you faggot
leave them alone you faggot
Posted by Oo on 6/16/2008 12:42:00 PM (Report abuse)
wow..
i like to make boys cry
i like to hurt them
am i psyco? lol
i like to make boys cry
i like to hurt them
am i psyco? lol
Posted by O on 6/12/2008 12:33:00 PM (Report abuse)
i think this is fake. i think you made it up.
not all your disgusting actions, just your disease.
Maybe you were diagnosed. I can believe that.
But i think you created this disease for yourself.
Someone hurt you very bad, and you're taking it out on everyone else.
not all your disgusting actions, just your disease.
Maybe you were diagnosed. I can believe that.
But i think you created this disease for yourself.
Someone hurt you very bad, and you're taking it out on everyone else.
Posted by Asf on 6/3/2008 10:14:00 PM (Report abuse)
Right...Well hmm, obviously, you are disgusting but seriously, do you really believe you've actually scarred these girls for life? I sincerely doubt it! You'd need to massacre their family to do something like that, but maybe I shouldn't be giving you any ideas..ah well, you'll be dead soon enough anyway.
Posted by Interesting...-ish on 6/1/2008 7:44:00 PM (Report abuse)
you are a loser stop pretending to everyone that you know everything, fight me.
Posted by Cooldude on 6/1/2008 2:36:00 PM (Report abuse)
Reading this reminds me of the guy from American Psycho. You like long term damage with lots of tears...he liked quick death and lots of blood.
Posted by Anonmyous on 5/31/2008 11:48:00 PM (Report abuse)
omg thats so sad i want to give you a hug so bad :(
Posted by Lucyy on 5/29/2008 2:40:00 PM (Report abuse)
I read this, and the only feelings I have, are I want to hug you. Your going through so much. THis might be total bs, but I think your power happy. Your doign it to gain power and control over people. The thing is, Girls are easy. no matter what type, they all just have a different way. your not going to get a challenge outta that. If you want a real chanllenge, try to stop and go cold turkey. I'll be here.
Posted by Young Religious Naive Girl on 5/28/2008 10:53:00 PM (Report abuse)
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Sounds like your husband identified himself through his control over you, and that's where I'm different than him. I am perplexed and disgusted by his type because through his dependence on this control, it not only shows how weak and feeble he is, but that pathetic crap they pull discredits artists like myself -- gives us a bad name. Where he depended on you to complete his needs for a submissive victim, I make people into victims because its entertaining and I have the ability to pull it off. I'm self sufficent, an independent contractor with no ties. Unless its a for a personal project, I see no need for anybody else or relationships in general. What I do is a hobby and keeps my skills sharp. Your ex-husband it seems had a shit-ton of suppressed issues causing that behavior.
But kudos on your strength, its intrestring to see how different people react to different pressures. I'd actually like to meet this ex, he could be fun. Against a void like me, his type (those who prey on others to hide their own inadequacy) are driven insane before they eventually shatter. Their usual games don't work on someone lacking emotion and the concept being humble or submissive before someone I can't comprehend, I am all that exists in my view.
Sounds like your husband identified himself through his control over you, and that's where I'm different than him. I am perplexed and disgusted by his type because through his dependence on this control, it not only shows how weak and feeble he is, but that pathetic crap they pull discredits artists like myself -- gives us a bad name. Where he depended on you to complete his needs for a submissive victim, I make people into victims because its entertaining and I have the ability to pull it off. I'm self sufficent, an independent contractor with no ties. Unless its a for a personal project, I see no need for anybody else or relationships in general. What I do is a hobby and keeps my skills sharp. Your ex-husband it seems had a shit-ton of suppressed issues causing that behavior.
But kudos on your strength, its intrestring to see how different people react to different pressures. I'd actually like to meet this ex, he could be fun. Against a void like me, his type (those who prey on others to hide their own inadequacy) are driven insane before they eventually shatter. Their usual games don't work on someone lacking emotion and the concept being humble or submissive before someone I can't comprehend, I am all that exists in my view.
Posted by Thriving on Feedback on 5/28/2008 1:37:00 PM (Report abuse)
You sir are very intresting, I wonder as a woman if it would be as sucessful considering I am taking it in instead of filling it up, there is something to be said for that... Good Luck!
Posted by Hhh on 5/28/2008 1:26:00 PM (Report abuse)
What you dont realize is when your old and crumblng apart and no girl will ever want you, you will look back when you were fucking up peoples lives that maybe you could of had a great girl that would love you intell the day you died. You push people away before they can see your true side because your such a horrrible person. God and Karma with punish you the way you should be punished. I bet you anything those girls that you "oh so ruined there lives" are ten times happier now than you will ever be. Get over your self.
Posted by CW on 5/28/2008 12:23:00 PM (Report abuse)
Men like you are the reason the world is gone mad. You're awful. But I'm so damn proud of myself and reading your story only makes me feel more so. You & my ex share a lot in common. He tried to pull all that jazz. He's me ex for those reasons ;-) keep it at that. Honestly I think I did more damage in the end. He couldn't handle having no control. Nothing he said could affect how I view myself or the things I do. He started cracking under the pressure of not having the slightest influence on my mentality other than making me feel stronger. He must have not been to your extreme yet though I do wonder how you would react if you saw no cause being left from your actions. Call me fat & I'll tell you to look elsewhere for lovin' :P I cared about him deeply, but I love myself more. I'm not selfish, just intelligent. I want to call you pathetic over & over but it will fall upon deaf ears. You can't help it. It's who you are. I wish the girls who come across your path the best of luck. They are going to need it.
Posted by . on 5/28/2008 8:56:00 AM (Report abuse)
i like you, you should work for the military
Posted by Lucas on 5/28/2008 8:08:00 AM (Report abuse)