Second best
Posted by an anonymous user on 5/7/2008 8:15:00 AM
i feel like im losing my boyfriend. im really in a sad mood. we have been together for 2 years. ive devoted every single day of my life to him. i sleep next to him every night. we do everything together. but these past couple of months haven't seemed right. i think im mean to him sometimes. i really really hate myself for it. he is the best person in my life. but i feel like my actions have distanced him from me a good bit. when we hang out with our friends, we'll call them jane and jake, his face lights up like it did when we were 1st dating. im really glad that he's happy, i just wish i could make him feel that way. instead he thnks im gonna get mad about everythng. he told me the other day he's starting to think differently of me now. thats when it hit me. im a fucking bitch. my anger and sadness gets in the way of everything and i hate that. i wasn't like this before. thats why i think im second best to jake. he always talks about 'his best friend jake' and all the great times they had together. which is fine, but i wanna be his best friend. i want him to think this is the best time of his life. i want him to tell stories and laugh about things we did and he just doesn't. whats wrong with me??!!??
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I feel you honey, I'm right there with you. I've been with my live in boyfriend for 2 years as well and I've been dealing with the same issue. "What's wrong" with you:: it's hurt. Who hurt you? Was it him? something he said or did? Was it someone from the past- and if it was, do you want their ugly memory crawling out of your mouth infecting the life you have with someone you hold dear?
In my case my boyfriend cheated on me about 6 times I can account for (more if you're counting unconfirmed situations). There was so much hurt and resentment from it- know that no matter the cause you can over come it. Recognizing the issue is the first step... don't place blame, just rationally confront the real issue and work through it. That's the only way I have been able to leave the anger behind and move on into a bright future. Best wishes to you!
In my case my boyfriend cheated on me about 6 times I can account for (more if you're counting unconfirmed situations). There was so much hurt and resentment from it- know that no matter the cause you can over come it. Recognizing the issue is the first step... don't place blame, just rationally confront the real issue and work through it. That's the only way I have been able to leave the anger behind and move on into a bright future. Best wishes to you!
Posted by Breanna Jones on 5/8/2008 5:09:00 PM (Report abuse)