I'm suicidal I spent 8 fucking hours in a mental hospital last january Im in love with my best friends ex Im addicted to whatever my weed is laced with im emetiphobic ive considered suicide im scared my problems at home are ruining my brother im the only one who knows my sister used to do drugs i found messages proving my dads cheating but never told my mom i used to have an eating disorder, and im afraid im starting up again i have social anxiety disorder i have severe depression i want help but my mom believes its all an act i do graffiti because i love art and the rush i spent almost 700 dollars on weed this summer i only did weed this summer because the guy i burn with is who im in love with my dad is a pervert someone tried to get me in their car one night, never told my parents if im not getting help by 3 months, im done for good.
I am in a relationship with this guy for 2 months and he’s really great and I love him. But ever since I found out he is worth 2.6 million......I been trying everything in my power to make the relationship work even harder. He hates his parents and plans to move out right after getting his cash. So I am not worried about his parents at all...... He is 17 and when he turns 18 he will get all his money. In 7 more months he will be 18.And when he gets his money he told me he wants to get a place and have me move in with him. If I move in with him....at least I will be able to stick around. I would do everything to keep him if we live together. I would cook, clean, and of course have sex whenever he wanted. And maybe get married and if I need to keep him probably get pregnant because I know he wouldn’t leave me then because he always wanted to raise his child with both parents and not to mention child support if he doesn’t. So things would be a lot easier if I make this work for the next 7 months. Don’t get me wrong I love this guy and if I had his kid I would raise that child with love and I know how messed up it sounds I feel like such a gold digger…... But I come from a really poor family my future doesn’t look too bright. I always had a plan on how I would get through life. By working hard and going to college and getting a good job etc.....But then this wonderful guy came a long and I liked him for who he was…then I found out about the money……its all that is on my mind. If I’m with this guy I know he would use his money to take care of me 2.6 million will last you a life if you’re smart with it which he is. But not only that he can use the money to pay for me to go to college and then medical school and I would have my career, a guy I love and a nice home. I see the golden ticket in my hand for a better future; I can have everything I have ever wanted all in one shot. Even if down the line if he ever left me I would probably have his kid and he’s a nice guy he would want me to succeed in life being his child’s mother. Also if he stays long enough for everything to work out I would have my career and then I wouldn’t need to depend on him anymore. Life would be so easy and smooth........I know it’s wrong. But I look at him like he is my only escape out of this bad neighborhood. I want a better life.............So ill stick it out as hard as I can to get it..............This is what pelages my mind at night. I worry how would treat me in the future? Would he ever find out about this? Can I really pull this off? And do I really love him if this is my ultimate goal? It makes me sound like a horrible person. But its something that I have to do......I wish he never told me about his money. Then I could have loved him for him and wouldn’t try to make it work so hard for all the wrong reasons....
i would do anything to be loved. to be near someone. to hear someone say they love me. to be given a big hug. to be held in someones arms and forget about the world.
i would do anything to get rid of this gnawing loneliness that keeps me up at night and makes me cry so much and hurts me so badly.
I have a condition that means that I cannot have children.
When I was a baby, the doctors had to take out both of my ovaries and pretty much the entire system in my body that causes periods/pregnancy (basically everything that makes me a woman).
I have to take hormone tablets for my breasts to grow and to control my bone-density.
When I was younger I used to just tell people about my condition, but people would misunderstand and for 6 years of my life I got bullied, being called a man, a transexual, a freak.
I wish I was normal. I feel like I'm not a real girl. When trying to explain it to me, the doctors said that, when I was growing inside my mother, I was supposed to be a boy, but my body rejected the androgen (the male growth hormone).
I know the doctors are trying to explain it to me in a way I will understand, but this description just makes me feel like the things the bullies said about me are true: I'm not a woman, I'm a man being made into a woman.
Also, over the last few years I have become obsessed with babies and teenage pregnancy. I think it's the whole "wanting what you can never have" cliche, but I think about having a baby everday. I am only 16 and my lust to be a mother is all-consuming.
Sometimes I go weeks without taking my tablets. I know this is self-destructive because my tablets don't only control my breat development, but also keep my bones strong and if I stop taking them, I run the risk of bone-density problems like osteopirosis and even more, possibly life-threatening diseases.
But when I stop taking the tablets, I feel more normal. The doctors, after doing a blood-test to find out the level of female-hormone in my body, suggested that I wasn't taking the tablets because I was in denial of my condition.
A tiny part of me agrees, but my mother was outraged and had a huge arguement with the doctors. Now I see a counciler at the hospital, who talks to me not just about my condition but about all aspects of my life. My mum is disgusted by this and has complained, saying that her life is not their business. But it's MY life. I think this counciling is what I need.
But she won't stand by me. She is trying to stop it.
Something good about myself? I'm very funny, and at my best am a loyal, truthful, trustworthy friend.
wait I just remembered my deepest secret was that time I made love with my bff in the car.... it was the best and looking forward to it again and again......
im addicted to porn and masturbation which makes me dicussed with myself cause im a girl and only 11 and im suicidle and tried to kill myself but didn't have the guts. i don't think that theres anything good about me except that i get good grades
My darkest secret is that I stopped telling people that he rapes me, because the few people I did tell in confidence told me it was my fault and I was doing it for attention (which isn't true at all). I'd tell the police, but I admit that I'm not only afraid, but I fear the worst if it went public. I've learned to live with my decision on keeping silent for now.
With that being said, my other semi-secret is that I still love my one ex terribly, and only wish the best for her in the future. We still tell each other that we love one another, even though we are with others and have promised one another that we will always stay in each others lives. It's a long, complicated story that also for now, will be kept a secret.
Good things about myself? I'm very friendly, wish the best in people (even if they have wronged me), have the ability to forgive, and my boyfriend means the world to me. That's more then one but what the hell :D
When I was little my brother use to make me touch his penis and then he started sticking it in me. I was around 8 or 9 and he was around 16 or 17. I never told anyone but I secretly hate him for it because I was a kid and didnt understand.
When I have kids I will never leave them alone with him. I guess I am so ashamed that I cant tell anyone.
Ughhh...... I just put it behind me, but it feels so good to share something that Ive always kept to myself,
Something about myself, I am a giver and a pleaser. I always give to those in need without even thinking twice about it.
well ammm, i had abortion twice i didnt want to, but i had to cause my family would kill me if they knew am a sex addict too, and i cheated on my boyfriend each time we had a fight..am a horibble person i know :(
what i like about my self is i have hope in tomorrow although it will be bad
umm theres TWO good things about me. im a good singer and an amazing drawer for a 12 year old. my user pic is one of my drawings. its really small though
i'm mentally scarred by the things that others have experienced. my life is fine and i shouldn't be like this, but i am. my mother is a rape victim so i'm constantly scared of everything, my dad cheated on my mother for 10 years, so my trust issues are horrible etc etc. nothing has happened to me, but my perception of reality is totally warped.
been sitting here ofr 10 or so minutes, i have no idea what is good about me.
My secret is that I look in all the wrong places for happiness. And something I like about me, is that I'm very very good at lying to myself . I can convince myself that I really am happy by saying saying that I like the way I am living.
I have a eating disroder and know one knows, sometimes I try and make myself sick becuse I feel really bad when I eat, evan like a tiney chcolate button :\ I starve myself to, know one knoes that eaither. :\
one good thing about me... mmmm... I can draw really good and im only 12, im desineing 4 tatoos for 4 people :)
My deepest darkest secret. hmm now you see thats a good one because i have a few secrets. my favorite movies are chick flicks and disney movies. Im a guy. Most people look up to me and come to me for there problems but i have a problem letting other people know my feelings because im scared to show weakness. I had sex with my bestfriends younger sister to. lol i didnt tell anyone that because at the time me and him were room mates and it was his bed.
a good thing about me is that im a very kind and outgoing person. people come to me just to talk about there feelings because im the only person they say they feel comfortable talking to. I'm also very straight forward and tell people how it is whether they like it or not.
i'm karisa. i don't know any of you. but i'm willing to share.
secret; i'm obsessed with my weight, i'm addicted to porn, and my house makes me depressed.
good thing; when i'm not in this house i'm always smiling, and i can find humor in anything (: i'm an excellent writer, and i plan to go to college - unlike the rest of my family.
I still love my ex fiance...even though he used to hit me...and people think i am over my pill addiction...but the truth is i got better at hiding it...they just think ihave been drinking... but i have an awesome personality....
no secrets about me....its true...i dun hide things anymore..i dun have anyone to hide things from :/ Good thing about me....hmmmm okay that took an hour and i couldn't think of any :/
hmm my deepest secret is that everyone thinks ive stopped cutting myself and its actualy worse than ever.. i cant think of much nice stuff about me at the moment, umm, i think im an alrite person and im quite creative im not sure.. good question though :) ox
My deepest darkest secret is........ hmm.... tbh, i don't have one... i talk too much one good thing about myself... (: i'm a skilled writer (or so i think)
alright i am posting this because u guys dont know who i am ..................... i had sex on a plane with
wait for it
my stepbrother and we werent dating each other then(yea we r dating now ) it was sooo hot we just pulled each other into the bathroom and were fucking each other ......................
Why doesn't anyone have anything good to say about theirselves? I'm bipolar and I've had an extrememly bad past as well, but I am sure I could name a lot of good thingd about myself.
Sounds like you are saying all women are irresponsible...let's not even get started on that. I hope you find your formulated-perfect woman one day...if it jives with your formula...
Don't take it so personal.. just giving my opinion..that's what we are here for, right?
Joey: I can name some good things about you...but then you wouldn't get the credit for listing them yourself! :)
This satire? I don't understand what was funny about it.
It's not that I fear a woman will put you in debt from looking at them. I think Marriage is great and all for some people; but once you go in together with someone irresponsible with their money it can harm you with the mortgage interest rate; less disposable income to go around because they have consolidation loans or credit cards they have to pay for. It's a mess. I'd rather not deal with it. It doesn't jive with my formula.
Unleaded, you are so DAMN funny.. you made me smile right now..and I don't feel like smiling.. I'm guessing you work in finance...and it's actually quite common for people that are typically reserved in their day-to-day life to be quite aggressive in bed...and vise versa...
I think abortion is OK only if the child poses a threat to the mother's life. I don't think it's ok, even in rape cases.
I secretly have feelings but because I've been burned so hard in the past I have completely let them go, to let logic and facts rule my persona. I'm like Spock from Star-Treck. (That's so goddamn nerdy)
I'm pretty passive but when it comes to sex I am ridiculously dominant.
I have 3 degrees but I left them off of my resume to land a lower-class job because I don't value possessions, money, or power.
When I look at women I see credit-scores and debt instead of a person. When I assess a relationship I see it as an algebraic formula of money, resources, compatibility, friction and time invested.
Can't think of either... :) I love toe socks! (well, it's not really a deep dark secret but funny!) I'm loyal and have a huge heart and if you asked for a dollar, and all I had was one penny, I'd find the other $.99 cents for you...
