Shitty situation

Posted by takjhsdasdkjh on 6/21/2008 1:11:00 AM

My friend is at a party right now, and is probably making out with the girl that I love. I love her with all my heart and I'm afraid that - although she leads me to believe that she loves me back - she thinks of me as just a minor friend. She's breaking my heart and as a result I want to destroy my friend completely. I don't know what to do. He knows how I feel about her and I can't get over the fact that they're together. I want to win her over, and I don't care if it breaks his heart. This is raw, and I love her way too much to be trampled. I don't like how my love is bringing the worst out of me, but it's refreshingly honest. In the end, all is fair in love and war.

I will be seeing her soon, but I'm afraid that I'm really deep in the friend zone with her and that all our meetings will include him - my friend - as well. I know that she has feelings for him - the prick - because he has basically told me so. It fucking breaks my heart. The thought of them together kills me. Still, I remain optimistic and confident in the fact that I truly can earn her love. I just hope she doesn't use my love to break my heart.

It's a really fucked up situation, and I hope it can work. I know it can, though. As I said I am - ultimately - deeply optimistic. My freatest challenge is not allowing my love to bring out the worst in me. I realize that. In the end, if I can truly achieve that goal, the rest - including her love - will follow. I feel it.

Tags: love, triangle, heart, broken

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