Should I Stay? Is It Worth It?
Posted by HaveYouEver on 6/3/2008 2:06:00 PM
me and my boyfriend have been together for about 9-10 months now and it hasnt been easy. he has alot of issues including depression and his family are a bunch of arseholes to be honest.
But i do love him and i know that he loves me so very much because i'm all he has. and hes always said that he wants to be with me forever. and its not that i dont want to be with him, but that sometimes terrifies me, that im only ever going to be with one person.
also awhile back i slept with another boy, (say what you will, it wont have any effect) i told him and for a few weeks my life was crap. but after awhile he did forgive me and now obviously we're back together again. i do love him. i really do, but i've been thinking if i really could leave him, like sacrifice all the good because of all the bad. But then i think, is it worth it? just to go out and sleep around and have fun? i don't know. but then i think if i lose him then i wont find anyone else like him ever again. so sometimes i feel trapped. but then sometimes i feel greatfull that i have someone like him, even though hes very annoying sometimes, he is amazing.
so i dont know what to do.
hould i stay with him forever, marry, have children, live together, never have another?
or should i leave him in search of fun, one night stands, being a teenager?
its just like i feel like i want to do all that.. but then go back to him afterwards. but thats never going to happen is it.
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But i do love him and i know that he loves me so very much because i'm all he has. and hes always said that he wants to be with me forever. and its not that i dont want to be with him, but that sometimes terrifies me, that im only ever going to be with one person.
also awhile back i slept with another boy, (say what you will, it wont have any effect) i told him and for a few weeks my life was crap. but after awhile he did forgive me and now obviously we're back together again. i do love him. i really do, but i've been thinking if i really could leave him, like sacrifice all the good because of all the bad. But then i think, is it worth it? just to go out and sleep around and have fun? i don't know. but then i think if i lose him then i wont find anyone else like him ever again. so sometimes i feel trapped. but then sometimes i feel greatfull that i have someone like him, even though hes very annoying sometimes, he is amazing.
so i dont know what to do.
hould i stay with him forever, marry, have children, live together, never have another?
or should i leave him in search of fun, one night stands, being a teenager?
its just like i feel like i want to do all that.. but then go back to him afterwards. but thats never going to happen is it.
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maybe you should talk to him about it.
i know it sounds crazy, but talk to him about how you feel a lot of emotional pressure from him.
Maybe even try to get him some professional help. so that he can deal with his depression, so that less of the weight fall on you.
just a thought
good luck.
i know it sounds crazy, but talk to him about how you feel a lot of emotional pressure from him.
Maybe even try to get him some professional help. so that he can deal with his depression, so that less of the weight fall on you.
just a thought
good luck.
Posted by A person on 6/4/2008 7:11:00 PM (Report abuse)
the grass is probably greener. you sound too you to settle for less.
Posted by Just do it on 6/4/2008 12:27:00 AM (Report abuse)