The listener.
I've always been a caring guy in a way.At first I thought it was just who I was.It only seemed right to make people feel better by listening to them and trying to help them with their problems.I've developed a serious depression over the last few years and recently have come to realize that I have been trying to help all these people to try and forget about my own issues.No one has ever been able to sit through a whole conversation with me because they can't handle who I am.I'm really lonely cause of that and I decided that I wouldn't talk about my feelings anymore.I listen to all my "friends" with their issues so that I feel like I have someone that wants to talk to me.Nights when I want to cry I look through my phone book and think of who I should try and talk to.I usually spend those nights holding the phone crying because no one would actually care.
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you realize you just described you locking yourself in a cage? I feel like this so many times. I know, life can feel just dull. But you have to open the door yourself. Its so easy for nice people become too nice its likea disease, you want to help your friends. Youre a "yes" man. You let people walk over you. And when that happens, obviously it feels like your life is no longer your own! You need excitement in life, you cant have too much sugar youll end up with diabetes! you cant dissolve poisons. You have to pour out the mixture and start new. all that keeps me going is that everything you find is missing in your life, is that its in the process of reaching you, You have to hold on till the tides take you to the shore, you might as well sail witha smile on your face! build your self confidence!! scream shout laugh hysterically !
Posted by safetynet on 2/23/2010 9:14:00 PM (Report abuse)
So fight to get free!!! Break the lock, open the door and step into this world!! It's worth it, I promise you that!!
Posted by Anonymous0623 on 2/23/2010 6:33:00 PM (Report abuse)
This is how I describe myself, "Breathing but definitely not living."
I think I have accepted my own situation. I don't pretend I am okay because I know I'm not. I live a completely different life. Well, I still have one person can talk to, but I choose not to express because I don't need. I feel bad but I have accepted that because it couldn't be worser.
I think I have accepted my own situation. I don't pretend I am okay because I know I'm not. I live a completely different life. Well, I still have one person can talk to, but I choose not to express because I don't need. I feel bad but I have accepted that because it couldn't be worser.
Posted by livibetter on 2/23/2010 6:31:00 PM (Report abuse)
But I'm not knocked down. I'm standing but in a cage.
Posted by theseeker on 2/23/2010 6:30:00 PM (Report abuse)
Don't like living?? That's crazy!! Life is the craziest, funnest, saddest adventure you will ever have!! But It will always be worth it!! Living is the most amazing thing you can do. Everything happens for a reason. And yeah we all get knocked down but you have to pick yourself up and keep moving because so does life....
Posted by Anonymous0623 on 2/23/2010 6:28:00 PM (Report abuse)
I dunno. I don't really express myself. First I thought I was just down cause my ex broke up with me. Then I thought it was because of my family. Then it was school. Everything is solved with all those but I still feel "bad". I wouldn't really consider myself suicidal because I don't really want to die, I just don't want to live anymore. There's nothing really wrong with my life. I just don't like living.
Posted by theseeker on 2/23/2010 6:21:00 PM (Report abuse)
Just because you're alive doesn't mean you're "okay". None of us are okay. But some of us are just better at hiding the pain then others. Well how else can you express yourself without using words? (just a little confused lol)
Posted by Anonymous0623 on 2/23/2010 6:17:00 PM (Report abuse)
I really don't like using words to describe how I'm feeling. It's redundant because a feeling is different for everyone. But to sum it up I guess...I'm always okay cause I'm still alive...*mumblesadlymumble*
Posted by theseeker on 2/23/2010 6:12:00 PM (Report abuse)
I hope everything works out for you, I'm always here to help, talk or just listen.
Posted by BlahBlah24 on 2/23/2010 6:11:00 PM (Report abuse)
You're welcome... Are you okay now?
Posted by Anonymous0623 on 2/23/2010 6:10:00 PM (Report abuse)
Thank you both.
Posted by theseeker on 2/23/2010 6:08:00 PM (Report abuse)
O my god!!! No!! That's a lie!! I would care!! Talk to me I'll listen and don't worry I won't run away!! I promise you this!! So come on my new found friend, talk to me! Tell me what's wrong!! I'll be here for you!!
Posted by Anonymous0623 on 2/23/2010 6:05:00 PM (Report abuse)
...That's awful.. I'm terribly sorry about this.. I'm pretty young myself but I've been told that I'm a good listener as well. I'll be more then happy to listen to what you have to say..
Posted by BlahBlah24 on 2/23/2010 6:04:00 PM (Report abuse)