I only just admitted this to myself yesterday, and it makes sick.All this time, I thought it was a normal crush, but no, it's obsession.It's a poisoning of the mind.It's something I can't escape.Even when I think I have, it's still in the back of my mind.
I have no idea how to deal with it.It's so absolutely pathetic that I've let it go this far, and it's depressing me beyond belief.I don't know if I want to tell anyone about this, though.I can barely even call it what it is: an addiction (as you can see by my many uses of "it" and "this").
I just want to be able to go through the day without having to obsess over a stupid guy.I want to be free.
