Used and left behind
Posted by an anonymous user on 7/1/2008 10:06:00 PM
i still love you. i'm going to kill her for taking you from me. with my bare hands too. i can't even cry myself to sleep anymore, i just stay up all night. i'm so pathetic, how could one boy ruin your whole life?
..she's not even that pretty. i mean heck, i have NO self esteem, but even i know she's ugly. i would even kinda understand if she had a personality that was wild and amazing. but she doesn't. she's plain.
i left (him) for you. i was with him for FOUR years and i was in love. but you were my bestfriend for three years. then when you fell in love with me, i had to pick. ...why did you make me do it?
i picked you, and it was SO amazing, for two years we were in love
you took my virginity in the beginning and then left me in the end.
... i was saving that for marriage.
i was sure you were it.
you've been with her since right before new years.
it's almost the middle of summer now.
i'm waiting for you.
i'll wait for you forever.
but i don't know if i should anymore.
you tell your friends i'm crazy and a bitch.
so you're tweaker friend comes and spits on me.
you laughed.
do you remember?
i want to ask you but you wouldn't remember.
you were too drunk.
you had to have been, otherwise you wouldn't have been kissing her in front of me.
you know what though?
it's fine.
because here's OUR secret.
you've been cheating on her.
with ME.
ever since right after new years.
you kept telling me you loved me too.
and that you were going to leave her.
oh but did you?
no, instead you called me last week and told me you love her.
over a crummy phone call, how could you?
i'm going to tell her.
i'm gonna tell her everything.
even the secret i didn't tell you.
i was pregnant back in the beginning
but i miscarried.
i hate you for hurting me and not being sorry.
but i love you too.
if i told her, then you would be right, i am crazy.
so maybe i won't tell her.
maybe i'll just keep on crying.
i don't know what to do anymore.
hell, why is this so hard?
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..she's not even that pretty. i mean heck, i have NO self esteem, but even i know she's ugly. i would even kinda understand if she had a personality that was wild and amazing. but she doesn't. she's plain.
i left (him) for you. i was with him for FOUR years and i was in love. but you were my bestfriend for three years. then when you fell in love with me, i had to pick. ...why did you make me do it?
i picked you, and it was SO amazing, for two years we were in love
you took my virginity in the beginning and then left me in the end.
... i was saving that for marriage.
i was sure you were it.
you've been with her since right before new years.
it's almost the middle of summer now.
i'm waiting for you.
i'll wait for you forever.
but i don't know if i should anymore.
you tell your friends i'm crazy and a bitch.
so you're tweaker friend comes and spits on me.
you laughed.
do you remember?
i want to ask you but you wouldn't remember.
you were too drunk.
you had to have been, otherwise you wouldn't have been kissing her in front of me.
you know what though?
it's fine.
because here's OUR secret.
you've been cheating on her.
with ME.
ever since right after new years.
you kept telling me you loved me too.
and that you were going to leave her.
oh but did you?
no, instead you called me last week and told me you love her.
over a crummy phone call, how could you?
i'm going to tell her.
i'm gonna tell her everything.
even the secret i didn't tell you.
i was pregnant back in the beginning
but i miscarried.
i hate you for hurting me and not being sorry.
but i love you too.
if i told her, then you would be right, i am crazy.
so maybe i won't tell her.
maybe i'll just keep on crying.
i don't know what to do anymore.
hell, why is this so hard?
Tags: relationships, heartache, breakup, cheating
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wow...maybe you should get him out of your life? if he cant be true to her, do you think he was true to you??
Posted by Kk7 on 7/2/2008 12:06:00 PM (Report abuse)
my heart goes out to you, love.
i would usually say don't tell her because it isn't your place-
but this seems like a situation where he's clearly not going to tell her
and he's definitely a douchefuck.
go tell her and let him have his comeuppance for being such a complete asshole.
good luck darlin'.
i would usually say don't tell her because it isn't your place-
but this seems like a situation where he's clearly not going to tell her
and he's definitely a douchefuck.
go tell her and let him have his comeuppance for being such a complete asshole.
good luck darlin'.
Posted by Erin on 7/2/2008 11:33:00 AM (Report abuse)