my new friend? Too bad. He's humpable and fun, and I'm completely distracted by him.
We'll have seen him four times in six days come Friday when we plan to hang out again. He's so self-reserved still, and it's driving me absolutely wild. If he has any attraction to me, he's so careful to not let it show. I normally just hate that, and I do, but there's something exciting about this. It's torturing, it's intriguing, it's causing desperation. It's just marvelous and horrible at the same time. It's doing wonders for my imagination and erotica, not to mention my sex drive. I so want him to know that I think he's hot, but all of this reservedness is kicking my ass! GRAHHH! Tom told me to hold out and not confuse the boy, but hell, he's smart enough! He can handle it. But, Tom's usually right, and I know he just wants me to pace myself. I know for a fact that this guy's on the prowl, though, and I just wish he'd know he doesn't need to look very far. I'd love to play with him via online anonymity, a nice game of secret admiring and teasing, but I don't know if he'd enjoy that kind of game. Many people find it offending or juvenile.
One thing for sure is that if anything does eventually happen, this lead up is wonderful.