Wolf seeking Sheep's Advice
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/23/2008 2:33:00 PM
Hello children. Its been awhile since I've posted, been busy as a bee, and now I'm finally on a much needed vacation. I need to confess that even while I consider most people who post here 100% pathetic, I understand (and even enjoy) the sense of release that comes with this type of confessional. My posts, though few and far between, are pretty much the only honest things I say to people because I don't have to maintain this persona I've come to project. Well, its more of a role you could say, me playing the part of the a normal human being when I am anything but. Doctors have labeled me "anti-social", pop psychologists have quoted "sociopath" as an appropriate title, and any ex girlfriend would call me inhuman and sadistic (with plenty of dirty insults preceding and following no doubt). I've always scored extremely well on tests, and my PCL test was no different.
While I could talk about all the "cruel and sadistic" (your words, not mine) activities I enjoy, I'm not here to write about that. Admittedly I do enjoy some of the responses I get when I let my mask slip. The gasp or scream one lets out when they realize what I'm truly capable of is so quaint it makes me really appreciate the smaller things in life. Instead, today I come to all of you damaged and broken individuals as a comrade in the world of anonymous secrets looking for answers. I guess reason I write is I can't understand why you all take offense to me. Don't you realize I am what you aspire to be?
There are those who post about how they only want to kill themselves, and they are met with loads of sympathy and attention. There are those who admit odd sexual preferences, looking for reassurance that they are normal, and people give it to them. But when I reveal my cards, all you can say is that I'm a monster. So many here admit to odd pleasures or are seeking absolution for a sin, and they way I see it is that they are not comfortable with who they are. But why do all of you encourage that behavior? I hide my true personality because I'd be blacklisted and perhaps even jailed, which isn't where I want to be, but I embraced who I am. Granted, according to doctors I am unable to feel these intense feelings of loneliness, love, connection, depression, guilt, loyalty, etc...but isn't that what you all are trying to escape from? I live my life for my gain and mine alone, taking advantage of the openings people like you leave open for me to exploit and I'm the one who is called inhuman for it.
None of you take accountability for your actions, none of you actually confront your true self. Instead, you secretly hide your forbidden desires and waste your life fighting against what is obviously your true identity. Is it because I know what I want and have the confidence to take it that makes you so opposed to me? Or is it simply the fact that in contrast to mine, your life has been spent finding acceptance in order for you to feel good about yourself?
People who know my actual personality ask me what drives me to do what I do, how I can live with myself knowing I destroy lives. Aside from the fact that it is fun, satisfies an itch, and pretty much the only challenge I can find these days; its because you let me. I read your insecurities like a book and I only hope, for your sake at least, you never play poker against me. So I take advantage of the opportunities life presents, can you blame me? If you're out on the street and find a $100 on the sidewalk, wouldn't you pick it up? Until you all can say to me that you are a 100% realized individual, no one has the right to judge me. Even though I lie to other people, you all lie to yourselves. Which is worse?
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While I could talk about all the "cruel and sadistic" (your words, not mine) activities I enjoy, I'm not here to write about that. Admittedly I do enjoy some of the responses I get when I let my mask slip. The gasp or scream one lets out when they realize what I'm truly capable of is so quaint it makes me really appreciate the smaller things in life. Instead, today I come to all of you damaged and broken individuals as a comrade in the world of anonymous secrets looking for answers. I guess reason I write is I can't understand why you all take offense to me. Don't you realize I am what you aspire to be?
There are those who post about how they only want to kill themselves, and they are met with loads of sympathy and attention. There are those who admit odd sexual preferences, looking for reassurance that they are normal, and people give it to them. But when I reveal my cards, all you can say is that I'm a monster. So many here admit to odd pleasures or are seeking absolution for a sin, and they way I see it is that they are not comfortable with who they are. But why do all of you encourage that behavior? I hide my true personality because I'd be blacklisted and perhaps even jailed, which isn't where I want to be, but I embraced who I am. Granted, according to doctors I am unable to feel these intense feelings of loneliness, love, connection, depression, guilt, loyalty, etc...but isn't that what you all are trying to escape from? I live my life for my gain and mine alone, taking advantage of the openings people like you leave open for me to exploit and I'm the one who is called inhuman for it.
None of you take accountability for your actions, none of you actually confront your true self. Instead, you secretly hide your forbidden desires and waste your life fighting against what is obviously your true identity. Is it because I know what I want and have the confidence to take it that makes you so opposed to me? Or is it simply the fact that in contrast to mine, your life has been spent finding acceptance in order for you to feel good about yourself?
People who know my actual personality ask me what drives me to do what I do, how I can live with myself knowing I destroy lives. Aside from the fact that it is fun, satisfies an itch, and pretty much the only challenge I can find these days; its because you let me. I read your insecurities like a book and I only hope, for your sake at least, you never play poker against me. So I take advantage of the opportunities life presents, can you blame me? If you're out on the street and find a $100 on the sidewalk, wouldn't you pick it up? Until you all can say to me that you are a 100% realized individual, no one has the right to judge me. Even though I lie to other people, you all lie to yourselves. Which is worse?
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despite what most of the other comments say, i do not think this was boring and i also don't think that you're "bullshiting"...it is very easy to see that you are a very smart person. and i do have to agree that most of the people on this site are nothing more then lonly sad attention seekers.
Posted by an anonymous user on 1/6/2009 3:31:00 AM (Report abuse)
I'd like to meet you and chillax.
Posted by braceface2289 on 12/15/2008 12:19:00 AM (Report abuse)
Congratulations.
You're a sociopath. You're anti-social. You interpret this as being "anything but a normal human being." Good for you.
You're not subjected to the negativity of emotions, and you use this as your claim to self-actualization. Well, Mr. Maslow, you've got a few things wrong.
The Hierarchy of Needs is composed of five levels. These levels are, going from bottom to top: Psychological, Safety, Love/Belonging, Esteem, and Self-Actualization. The needs that characterize each level start from basic human needs, and continue into more abstract ones like respect of/for others, a defined sense of morality (as opposed to "lack thereof), friendship, intimacy, and lack-of-prejudice. By these standards, you are far from self-actualized, as we poor, unfortunate, inferior souls can see.
You're absolutely right, however, about being "anything but normal." That is true. You defined yourself as a sociopath in the very first paragraph of your post. You aren't normal. You are one of a breed that can be defined, diagnosed, classified, and reduced to lowest terms. The very nature of your being can be determined by a moment's research in a DSM-IV. You have a "disorder", you have "tendencies", you have a label. Your actions, your thoughts, your very self can be attributed to nothing more than structural and functional differences in the brain. Neurotransmitters, neurons, and synapses. We poor souls are so unfortunate to be bound by emotions, while you, however, are bound by physiology. You don't feel emotions because your brain is not properly equipped for it.
You, my friend, are not self-actualized. You claim to be, but it is impossible, because your very condition doesn't allow it.
Thanks, but if that's my only other option, I'd rather be "inferior."
You're a sociopath. You're anti-social. You interpret this as being "anything but a normal human being." Good for you.
You're not subjected to the negativity of emotions, and you use this as your claim to self-actualization. Well, Mr. Maslow, you've got a few things wrong.
The Hierarchy of Needs is composed of five levels. These levels are, going from bottom to top: Psychological, Safety, Love/Belonging, Esteem, and Self-Actualization. The needs that characterize each level start from basic human needs, and continue into more abstract ones like respect of/for others, a defined sense of morality (as opposed to "lack thereof), friendship, intimacy, and lack-of-prejudice. By these standards, you are far from self-actualized, as we poor, unfortunate, inferior souls can see.
You're absolutely right, however, about being "anything but normal." That is true. You defined yourself as a sociopath in the very first paragraph of your post. You aren't normal. You are one of a breed that can be defined, diagnosed, classified, and reduced to lowest terms. The very nature of your being can be determined by a moment's research in a DSM-IV. You have a "disorder", you have "tendencies", you have a label. Your actions, your thoughts, your very self can be attributed to nothing more than structural and functional differences in the brain. Neurotransmitters, neurons, and synapses. We poor souls are so unfortunate to be bound by emotions, while you, however, are bound by physiology. You don't feel emotions because your brain is not properly equipped for it.
You, my friend, are not self-actualized. You claim to be, but it is impossible, because your very condition doesn't allow it.
Thanks, but if that's my only other option, I'd rather be "inferior."
Posted by patheticity on 12/9/2008 3:59:00 AM (Report abuse)
In a way I do envy you, looking at the way youwrite I only wish I could do that in my english lessons, I agree with the fact that people do try to escape from their emotions and I only wish that I could from mine sometimes but I think that some other comments are true, such as your only writing on here for attencion. I dont know the ins and outs of this ''life destroying'' but it doesnt sound to great for us.
As much as im itching to tell you about my money worrys, boy worrys, school worrys this isnt about me, its about you, and as much as it may be fun to ruin lives it sucks for the life you ruined. Heres a challenge, become a millionare.
As much as im itching to tell you about my money worrys, boy worrys, school worrys this isnt about me, its about you, and as much as it may be fun to ruin lives it sucks for the life you ruined. Heres a challenge, become a millionare.
Posted by MissingYou on 12/5/2008 10:18:00 AM (Report abuse)
If you really are what you state you are, a self actualized individual without morals, who has no regrets and sees no sin or wrong in what they do, despite that others call them sadistic or evil, then I congratulate you. You have found the path to innocence and salvation. The knowledge of sin is the creator of sin, and if you don't believe anything you do is a sin, then you are sinless.
However, reading your post, there appears several things about your posts that I do not agree with.
That you judge people for doing what they think is right and trying to correct their mistakes is unacceptable. If you truly were as guiltless as you say, you wouldn't care what these people do or don't do. They do it because they think it will help them, they do it because they think it is right. Whatever their reason for doing it, it shouldn't matter to you anyway. You are a self actualized individual. What do you care of others reasoning for what they do. Your reasoning is the only one suitable for you anyway, how could you understand them?
No, you do feel guilty I believe. You do feel bad about what you do. You post here for the same reason others post here. To be reassured of who you are. To read these people's posts here and say, "Yes, they revile me, yes, they realize how horrible I am, they detest me. And I don't care." You need someone to hate you every now and then to remind yourself that you "enjoy" what you do and you "don't care" and are "numb" to what they say.
But the truth is, if someone were to actually look at you with true objectivity, you only think of yourself as a self-actualized individual who is superior in their self identity because you don't know how to fix yourself, and there is no other way to stop feeling guilty other than pretending you are ok with what you do.
A real self-actualized individual has morals and follow those morals and if they do something wrong they learn from their mistakes and move on. They are not afraid to admit they are wrong when they are wrong. You are the opposite. You refuse to admit you are wrong because you are too insecure too. You don't have the power to confront what you really are and reject it. So you just go along with it and smile and pretend you are happy with who you are.
However, reading your post, there appears several things about your posts that I do not agree with.
That you judge people for doing what they think is right and trying to correct their mistakes is unacceptable. If you truly were as guiltless as you say, you wouldn't care what these people do or don't do. They do it because they think it will help them, they do it because they think it is right. Whatever their reason for doing it, it shouldn't matter to you anyway. You are a self actualized individual. What do you care of others reasoning for what they do. Your reasoning is the only one suitable for you anyway, how could you understand them?
No, you do feel guilty I believe. You do feel bad about what you do. You post here for the same reason others post here. To be reassured of who you are. To read these people's posts here and say, "Yes, they revile me, yes, they realize how horrible I am, they detest me. And I don't care." You need someone to hate you every now and then to remind yourself that you "enjoy" what you do and you "don't care" and are "numb" to what they say.
But the truth is, if someone were to actually look at you with true objectivity, you only think of yourself as a self-actualized individual who is superior in their self identity because you don't know how to fix yourself, and there is no other way to stop feeling guilty other than pretending you are ok with what you do.
A real self-actualized individual has morals and follow those morals and if they do something wrong they learn from their mistakes and move on. They are not afraid to admit they are wrong when they are wrong. You are the opposite. You refuse to admit you are wrong because you are too insecure too. You don't have the power to confront what you really are and reject it. So you just go along with it and smile and pretend you are happy with who you are.
Posted by krymff on 12/1/2008 7:14:00 AM (Report abuse)
You remind me of my friend. Too bad I love him.
Posted by TakiSama on 12/1/2008 2:54:00 AM (Report abuse)
The simple fact that you posted this note in the middle of the day during a work week leads me to believe that you are a sad and pathetic person with nothing going on in your life. For your sake and others get some help from the doctors that have labeled you such things...
You will be happier and healthier!
You will be happier and healthier!
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/10/2008 3:08:00 PM (Report abuse)
you're just an attention seeker who has watched too much horror movies
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/8/2008 4:31:00 PM (Report abuse)
O M G...
You are the one looking for attention!!! You want EVERYONE to wonder "well, WHAT exactly makes him so BAD???"
Well, I don't care!!! I am sure that you are a small, unassuming, jerk that has been pissed on his entire life, and now you come here to blindly mock the people who seek a small measure of comfort. IF doctor's have labeled you, in the way you have described, I am sure that it was well deserved. And if they could find nothing redeeming within you, who am I to rival that?
You sound like a frustrated, lonely, asshole...and I don't care about your thesis of boring bullshit above.
You are the one looking for attention!!! You want EVERYONE to wonder "well, WHAT exactly makes him so BAD???"
Well, I don't care!!! I am sure that you are a small, unassuming, jerk that has been pissed on his entire life, and now you come here to blindly mock the people who seek a small measure of comfort. IF doctor's have labeled you, in the way you have described, I am sure that it was well deserved. And if they could find nothing redeeming within you, who am I to rival that?
You sound like a frustrated, lonely, asshole...and I don't care about your thesis of boring bullshit above.
Posted by an anonymous user on 11/8/2008 1:05:00 AM (Report abuse)
fuck you.
u obviously are more of a dumbass than you know.
u obviously are more of a dumbass than you know.
Posted by secondbest on 10/27/2008 9:41:00 PM (Report abuse)
That was. the most boring entry ever in the history of mankind.
"Don't you realize I am what you aspire to be? "
of course, if I wanted to be a sodding boring, longwinded self righteous, quasi-I'm holier-than-thou writer, sure!
Let me get this straight big guy. People post on this site looking for a kind word or advice that they can't otherwise find in a society chockful of egocentrics like you, or in a society that doesn't seem to have time for them.
Destroying lives might be fun for you, O-thou-without-a-moral-core, but it sure ain't no fun reflecting on that at the end of your life :) Of course, I forget, you are going to live forever. You are so going to live forever. Cheerios to that, mate.
And Hannibal Lecter was motivated by a purpose - I do actually sympathise with that guy, but that's another story. You, on the other hand, Mr. Boring Bozo 2000, pls write more interesting entries, k thanks.
-Kendra
"Don't you realize I am what you aspire to be? "
of course, if I wanted to be a sodding boring, longwinded self righteous, quasi-I'm holier-than-thou writer, sure!
Let me get this straight big guy. People post on this site looking for a kind word or advice that they can't otherwise find in a society chockful of egocentrics like you, or in a society that doesn't seem to have time for them.
Destroying lives might be fun for you, O-thou-without-a-moral-core, but it sure ain't no fun reflecting on that at the end of your life :) Of course, I forget, you are going to live forever. You are so going to live forever. Cheerios to that, mate.
And Hannibal Lecter was motivated by a purpose - I do actually sympathise with that guy, but that's another story. You, on the other hand, Mr. Boring Bozo 2000, pls write more interesting entries, k thanks.
-Kendra
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/26/2008 10:00:00 PM (Report abuse)
lol lmfao omg rotf wtf hee hee
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/26/2008 12:27:00 AM (Report abuse)
Hi,
as long as your making all these excuses for yourself for writing on this site,, i will say that if your not ready to own up to what really lies beneath what is bothering you then dont post. Because I am a member of this site to help and have people help me with the problems and struggles that face in my everyday life. Get off this site,,, honestly we cant help you with criticizing your own kind
as long as your making all these excuses for yourself for writing on this site,, i will say that if your not ready to own up to what really lies beneath what is bothering you then dont post. Because I am a member of this site to help and have people help me with the problems and struggles that face in my everyday life. Get off this site,,, honestly we cant help you with criticizing your own kind
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/25/2008 11:58:00 PM (Report abuse)
I stopped reading about halfway down, but the last two sentences caught my eye. Yes I found a hundred dollars on the street once. Me and my homeless friend did. We split it, he kept $50 and I gave $50 to the breast cancer foundation.
If you come on here to pick on and make fun of people who have probems, for enjoyment, then you are far from self-actualised buddy. You are lower than anyone here.
Could that be why you're too scared even to make a username?
If you come on here to pick on and make fun of people who have probems, for enjoyment, then you are far from self-actualised buddy. You are lower than anyone here.
Could that be why you're too scared even to make a username?
Posted by Lemonade on 10/25/2008 6:01:00 PM (Report abuse)
Give me a break. All you are is a narcisstic sociopath looking for approval from people you don't even know. All these visions of grandeur you have of yourself is laughable. I bet your favorite movie is Silence of the Lambs. Your just a little man with big ideas of yourself.
Posted by babyhedred on 10/24/2008 9:16:00 PM (Report abuse)
so if you are such a cold hearted person who obviously doesn't care why are you posting
anonymously why do you need to place all your "secrets" on here for people to find? if your as smart as you say you are and really out for yourself go nation-wide and sell your secrets make some money off your "knowledge"and help us damaged and broken individuals. hhhmmmm... honestly i don't think your a monster.
i think its sad that You, me and everyone else on here don't have an actual person to turn to and tell our secrets to.........
anonymously why do you need to place all your "secrets" on here for people to find? if your as smart as you say you are and really out for yourself go nation-wide and sell your secrets make some money off your "knowledge"and help us damaged and broken individuals. hhhmmmm... honestly i don't think your a monster.
i think its sad that You, me and everyone else on here don't have an actual person to turn to and tell our secrets to.........
Posted by whhhoootttt on 10/24/2008 3:48:00 AM (Report abuse)
So what the f*** it is that you do, that scares the shit out of people?
Posted by an anonymous user on 10/24/2008 1:03:00 AM (Report abuse)
I like what you're puttin down. I could dig it.
Posted by glassjaw on 10/23/2008 11:30:00 PM (Report abuse)
The way you write reminds me of Hannibal Lecter
Posted by Skratchvomitz on 10/23/2008 10:53:00 PM (Report abuse)