I've tried killing myself like three times, all that accomplished was being in a coma a few times, a prolonged stay in the hospital, and severe memory loss. It's not worth it. Rock bottom is solid ground to stand up on and start trying to climb back to happiness. Just remember that. It may not seem like it, but if you let it, life will slowly go on.
Listen, I know I admitted that I'm ana/mia and it's all about control. But I don't reccomend it for anyone else. I ended up with heart problems, and I even passed out a few times in public. It's not something you'd want to give up everything to be.
Yoga, a night on the town with friends, a nice night at home with a good book and bubble bath, contact sports where you can tackle people. Whatever you like, do it.
Just tell yourself you're all that and a bag of chips, seriously. Dress really cute so your confidence goes up, and don't put yourself down, everyone's beautiful in their own way, for all you know he thinks your gorgeous. Just go for it. ;-)
Umm excuse me? I may only be 50% black but I find you extremly ignorant. It's just the certain people you chose to hang out with, not the race as a whole. For one, I'm black and I'm very respectful of my peers, the biggest drug I've ever tried was pot and the key word is tried. I've never been arrested, and neither had any of my other african american friends. So get your facts straight before you diss a whole race, when it's only certain people you have a feud with.