People do what they feel they need to and cope in whatever ways they find fit.
He isn't your whole life, you don't need him.
It's good you found something to help you. Music can be really powerful.
Hey, what's wrong?
I did a wash out hair dye a few years ago, but it was more than four shades (or something) off my natural color so it just didn't come out and I had to get it dyed back by my hair lady. Eventually it'll just grow out.