Whiskey and tea is better. I'm just sayin.
Look. So what? Everyone self medicates. Phlebotomy was thought to cure everything, alcohol cleanses wounds and, in theory, can actually be good for you, and sleeping pills. Well at least it isn't percocet.
You shouldn't kill yourself.
Suicide sucks.
And are you certain that theres no Heaven/Hell? Because if not. You're boning yourself with this whole killing yourself idea.