justcantlivealie

I'm from Canada. I'm glad to be part of SecretTalk family. Cheers! "Never make someone your everything, cause when they're gone, you've got nothing."

sorry for your loss. its out of your control, one day you'd be able to forgive yourself hopefully. {HUGS}

hey long time no talk................

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yes that's why i didn't come here for 3 months because it makes me more depressed when I'm already depressed...if that even makes sense

lol suure but it wont be secret anymore

It really is hard, it would take time, effort and lots of tears but remember, it's hard to wait for someone who you're not even sure if he would feel the same even after some time. you have to be strong, tell yourself you are better than this, this too will pass and it's better to hurt now than later. I am not saying this just because...let me tell you my story, my ex and I dated for over a year, we broke up 3 times because of long distance issues, we were planning to get married but then one day he just decided that he can't do it anymore, he gave up on me. he replaced me after a month, told me because he didn't wanna be alone so he had to find someone who would be there with him. it shattered me, i feel devastated. he told me he can't live without me and that i mean the world to him but he dumped and replaced me just like that. i went into depression for months because of being heartbroken. i even wanted to kill myself..i know it's stupid but the pain was overwhelming, i cannot handle it. it took me months before i can pull myself together. i was doing okay and then he came back. he said he still loves me and that he wants to try and make things work out. my instincts were telling me that i should not give in, i should stay away from him or else i'm going to suffer again. i'm still in love with him so i gave in, i followed my heart. he broke up with his girlfriend and we were talking about trying again but the other day he just snapped at me and told me to go die. he said he hates me and told me to stop talking to him. he knows that i'm having a hard time getting through the day without him so he is taking advantage of it by telling me that he would not talk to me for 3 days because i drive him insane. so now i'm on ignore again. i don't know if he truly loves me or he is just playing with my feelings. now i am back to where I started...heartbroken, feeling worthless and i'm getting tired...i'm this close to giving up on him. i keep on telling myself that i can't be blinded by my feelings for him that i would let him treat me like crap.
you might say, it's different from your situation but the point is....don't let your heart run your life...sometimes we have to use our head. he doesn't feel the same way...so reason out...you would just get hurt when you know from the start that it's just one sided. it would take time but it will surely pass and when it does, you'll be so much stronger. sorry for the long reply. hang in there. take care.

It's indeed hard. Going through the same thing. :(

FML

What if he is just using what you said as an excuse? The truth is he really wants to break up. It will hurt and it would be so hard to accept especially if he means the world to you. I understand because I'm in a similar situation. He said the right words and made me fall for him all over again and then one day he told me to go away. So much for the I love you, can't live without you, it's all a lie. Hang in there. It's hard but you're not alone...be strong. Take care!

Banna is right. I said this to the other secret. Act like you don't care. If you seem desperate and clingy, he would run away from you but if he sees that you can get on with life with or without him, he would think twice.

you don't wanna die suffering, live to love again. live to find that bliss.

that's complicated. you can't really say the feelings are real until you spend time with them. good luck though.