Penguin
The years that passed me by fill me with things that I have experienced firsthand. Abusive father, suicidal mother, boy problems, girl problems, sexuality issues, social issues, deep depression for years, self mutilation, low self esteem, and the list goes on. But what I have learned is to look up and look forward to a better day so that if I stumble, I can get back up.
I comment on secrettalk so that I may help people find their own way for the better. Help is never too far. (:
I feel that way too.
I don't know what I'm going to do without a good friend, so I keep thinking that it'll get better... when I know it probably won't.
Try getting into an activity that you really like, such as a club (knitting, volunteering, something) and I'm sure you'll make friends, even if you aren't putting the total effort. You make friends when you're really into something, and you won't even realize it. (:
Talk to her. Honestly, it's no good having a friend you can't communicate with, and it makes everything worse. Let her know that she's bugging you but don't tell her maliciously, just say you've been noticing some things. If it doesn't work out when you talk to her, then that's fine with you, and if it does work out, you have a friend whom you can have fun with again.
I hope it goes well for you, and whatever you choose to do may be right. (: