My so called "best friend" sleeps around all the fucking time. She has slept with almost every guy I have dated. She has had several pregnancy scares and has had like 2 STDs. Yet, she's still out there fucking every guy she can.
Holy shit you don't have a valentine for valentine's day? News flash, most people don't!
Lots of people don't have a mother on mother's day, or a father on father's day.
STFU and GET OVER IT.
He wasn't exactly asking you out. He's just saying that he'd like you to be a part of his life, but he's still not ready for a relationship. If you harass him too much about it, then he's going to push you away and you're going to ruin so just be patient and let whatever happens happen.
Don't force it.
Because you are going to ruin your son's life and cause him emotional damage the rest of his life.
He's at an age where he needs you to be there for him because pre-adolescence is not an easy time, especially not for a boy.
The fact that you have a son and you love him (at least I hope you do) should make you want to live and get help.
Get off your butt and look harder for a job, get your life together, make some friends and make sure your son doesn't have to go to a funeral for his mother who decided to be a coward and end her own life just because she doesn't have everything she wants in life.
Because I guarantee that will earn you a one way ticket to hell and if you go through with it I hope you rot for all eternity for abandoning your child so easily.
There are many out there who start off with a certain personality and successfully change it if they don't like who they are.
In yoga we are taught that meditation allows us to look inside of ourselves, to cast off whatever perceptions we have of ourselves because of other people making us believe we are a certain way and find out who we truly are. Our true self. It just involves becoming more at one with yourself and learning to accept that you might not be who people have projected you to be your whole life.
If your true self is an arrogant narcissist, so be it, but just make sure that's who you want to be, because everyone can change if they actually want to.